“I Feel Like Everybody Has PTSD Where We Come From:” An Interview with Sheff G

TE P. speaks with the Brooklyn drill artist about growing up in Flatbush and why recording one song instead of ten is not so bad.
By    December 4, 2019

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Only a few years ago, Sheff G was fighting a gun charge while living in a homeless shelter. But as he awaited sentencing, a song that he randomly released started to command the attention of his Flatbush neighborhood and the other four boroughs beyond. He expected to receive hate and beef from the viral hit, but instead gained thousands of followers and felt a love that he was yet unprepared for. The torch of a new sound, Brooklyn drill was suddenly passed to him, along with millions of YouTube views and his newfound believe that this “rap shit” could be real. He received five years of probation.

Since the release of the drill anthem, “No Suburban,” Sheff, as people call him, dropped what could be considered as a project’s worth of loosies—each adding momentum and legend to the backstory that preceded the 20-year old MC. The guttural, blunt-scarred texture and tone of his voice attacked each track, wielding an aggression incubated in the blocks that raised him. His grimy pronunciation and versatile flows showed a precision and treacherousness that validated his position as a leader of his new sub-genre, while also eliciting comparisons to grime artists across the pond. 

For Sheff though, the comparisons and coronations aren’t something he’s really worried about. You ever see in warrior movies where they give them the King’s crown and they don’t want it? It’s like that,” he says. 

It’s this cinematic sensibility and his ability to look around and read situations that he credits to his older cousin Caesar’s influence—who can be heard on “Feel a Way” talking through a jail phone—Caesar’s influence. He’s noticeably observant in conversation, but in his music it manifests as endless paranoia — a constant reminder of the eventful life he’s lived in such a short amount of time. He answers questions emphatically. When he wanted to explain something further he leads with, “Ait. So, Boom…” When he wants to get a point across he ends with, “You feel me?” And a consistent flurry of, “Facts!”, whenever he was nodding in agreement. 

As an artist who practically lives in the studio, he’s recently discovered the ability to slow down, look at the world around him, and focus on where he wants to go. He’s realized an appreciation not only for where he is, but where he could have gone.

“Growing up where we from anything could have happened,” Sheff says. “Shit always goes bad where we from. You don’t really expect a lot of good. But it’s good that this is the path I chose and I’m really doing it.”

With the release of his first full project, The Unluccy Luccy Kid, Sheff is possibly in the best place he’s been since his childhood days going to block parties on Clarkson Avenue. The project at times feels like the fastest, most cluttered and violent haunted house that you could ever enter. The themes of betrayal, retaliation, and loss are nothing new, but Sheff utilizes his ruthless swagger to guide the listener through the hectic streets that he has sacrificed so much in but also gained a career as a rapper from. 

Life for Sheff has been a constant rollercoaster of unlucky, lucky events—hence the title. But it’s all brought him to this point. Even though there are instances where being who he is now can be difficult — as many of the things he did for survival in the streets resurface in the most trivial of interactions with fans – he’s proud of what he’s done. And his Moms is proud of him too. TE P.


Let’s start at the beginning. You are from Brooklyn and I’ve seen you call Flatbush the capital of the city. Flatbush is very West Indian. What is it like growing up in a West Indian family?


Sheff G: It was lit. You know like, my family we all grew up together. Everybody was in one crib. So, it was a lot of us. My cousins and all that. It was a lit thing. And my Grandmother used to cook a lot. We used to eat good. Everything was lit. it was fun.


What were you like as a kid?


Sheff G: Shit, as a kid, I don’t know. Used to sit around, watch TV, cartoons, play games. I was playing Zelda and shit. Gamecube and Nintendo 64.


What was it like being a kid in Brooklyn at that time?


Sheff G: It was lit. When you go outside as a kid, when I was growing up, I never really had a phone until I was 15 or 16. I used be really outside with my friends and shit. [That’s] when I met everybody. People used to throw block parties on every block. In the summer time they would open up the fire hydrants and play in the water. The park was right around the corner from where I lived. The whole neighborhood would come outside because there wasn’t a lot of phones and shit. Everybody was literally outside. It was real lit.

 


What was your block like?


Sheff G: My block was the lit block! It was like, for me I thought it was the main block. I grew up on Clarkson and everybody from around the area always came to that block. When they threw block parties everyone would come to this block. Like after people would be at the park playing ball, people would come to the block. Clarkson was the block that was the litest I guess. We used to play football. It was always active. Even at night time we would play manhunt.


I saw in an interview that your family played a lot of soca when you were younger but you connected to rap. Can you speak to what that first piece music was, that you actively picked up and decided that you liked rap?


Sheff G: I would say it started like this, my cousin is older than me by like 4 to 5 years. He as always bumping Biggie and he was bumping 50 and shit. My other cousin, he’s like 2 years older than me. Me and him chilled with each other all the time. And he would bump Eminem and 50 back to back. He used to watch the movie 8 Mile and that’s how I started paying attention to it. That’s how I really got into it with the music. From there it just kept going.


Did you ever think you’d be a rapper or did you just like the music?


Sheff G: Hell no! Music ain’t really hit me until I like 7th grade or 8th grade. Cuz now, when I was travelling to school and after school, I’m really playing music in my ears. That’s when music really started hitting. I really started paying attention to what was going on. I ain’t never thought I was going to be a rapper—never. Even if it was a thought, I was like, “Ok. That’s never really going to happen for real for me.” It’s like a dream come true type shit.


Now that you are a rapper, I’ve heard a bond between you and your mom in your music. When you talk about her, you can tell ma dukes is everything to you. How does she feel about you being a rapper right now?


Sheff G: She love it! It’s a good feeling, you feel me? I get to help out my family. It’s a good feeling. I could have been something else. I could have been anywhere else. It came out good.


When was it that you know your mom was proud of you?


Sheff G: She would tell me. One day I came in the crib and she hugged me and told me she was proud of me. She told me that. That’s what motivated me.


Does she listen to you music?


Sheff G: Of course. [laughs] I don’t think she really be bumpin’ it but I know she plays it. She into it.


I also saw in an interview that your pop was in the street too. How does he feel about you doing music now?


Sheff G: He proud of me too. Like I said, growing up where we from anything could have happened. Shit always goes bad where we from. You don’t really expect a lot of good. But it’s good that this is the path I chose and I’m really doing it. He’s proud of me too.


You have mentioned before that when you went outside, there were some things that you just can’t avoid. Can you talk a little about that? Because I think there’s this misconception that cats are just running to it, but sometimes you can’t avoid it.


Sheff G: Some shit you can’t avoid. You could be in the park playing ball. Somebody gets bagged. Like, y’all fighting and a fight turns into something else. Now y’all marked. You a marked person now. Even if ya friend was to have a fight. Now you marked too because you had a fight with his mans. That’s shit you can’t avoid ‘cuz it’s going to happen regardless. Even going to school there’s Freshman Friday. That was a thing when I was going to school—Freshman Friday. I don’t know if that’s still going on. Freshman Friday, when you a Freshman and you new to the school, on Friday you supposed to get jumped. So, that was a big tradition in Flatbush. I guess it was everywhere. Everybody used to do Freshman Friday. That was my era. That happened to me too. [laughs] It was crazy. Some shit you can’t avoid. When you growing up in the situation, you start to feel like that’s normal. Like, you heard I said, “Freshman Fridays” like it’s normal. At the time I thought that was normal. Shit will change ya mind up.


Once that became part of your everyday life, who was the first person that you looked up to?


Sheff G: It was definitely my older cousin. My older cousin Ceaser. Everybody, all the younger ones wanted to be like Ceaser. We all wanted ot be like him growing up.


How did he help shape who you are or your sensibilities?


Sheff G: When we all be in the crib we would be hearing my grandmother or my aunt, they would all glorify him ‘cuz he was tough as shit. We all used to look up to that like, “Damn. I want my moms to talk about me like that.”[laughs] We was like, “Yeah. You gotta be like Cease.”


Is there one thing you can point to that stuck with you because of your cousin Ceaser?


Sheff G: I guess it’s the way I move. Everything that I decide to do. He taught me a lot. To move smart in certain situations. I still keep that with me.


Like you, I’m a guy doing something that I never thought I’d be doing. Like, I never saw myself writing. But my connection to my people, my homeboys, and my family, and what we are—is something I don’t think a lot of people wouldn’t understand. I say all of that to say, I don’t like labels. So, I’m not going to call y’all a “gang.” Instead, what is your connection to your people and your neighborhood that—in your words—a lot of people wouldn’t understand?


Sheff G: You know what’s crazy? I talk about this shit all the time. It’s the labels that separate people from what’s actually going on. A group of people is going to be labeled a “gang” that’s in the hood. A group of people that’s not in the hood is not going to be labeled a gang, you feel me? It’s more like a brotherhood. If you living on a block and you coming outside, this is people that you with everyday. It’s not like ya just met and clicked up for one or two days. No—this is people you living with. This is our neighbors, you feel me? You know each other’s moms. You eating together. Holidays celebrating. These are your brothers now. Now, y’all like family. Y’all built this relationship. Everybody loves each other. It’s not just a “gang” with everybody wildin’ recklessly. It’s more than that.

 


What’s something about your hood that you love? That a lot of people might never know about?


Sheff G: Going back to what I was saying earlier. All the older heads on the block used to put they money up together so we could get a road block for jumpy houses, barbecuing, grilling, and having these block parties. But people don’t know that. Everybody think of the hood as some bad shit going on but we giving out food to the hungry. There’s a lot of things that people don’t know about. It was like the whole Flatbush. There was time you walked down Flatbush Ave on the strip and you could see different blocks doing it. Everybody supporting each other like a big ass family.


There are a lot of MC’s that’ve come out of Brooklyn. There’s a swag and a cockiness but also a willingness to back up that comes with it. For you, when you say, “I’m from Brooklyn,” what comes with that? What do you mean?


Sheff G: [laughs] I ain’t gonna front. When I say, “I’m from Brooklyn,” [laughs} that has a real strong feeling behind that. New York is where it’s at. Brooklyn is where it’s at. You gotta know that. When you say that. That’s what it comes with. I know for us, it’s a “This is where it’s at,” type of feeling. To everybody else it could be good, bad, or whatever. They know Brooklyn niggas is ignorant. Brooklyn niggas is saucy. All of that comes to mind.


What does it mean for you to be from Flatbush in particular?


Sheff G: First of all, a real Brooklyn nigga can never say that he from Brooklyn if he hasn’t been in every part of Brooklyn. I’m a Brooklyn niggas. So I’ve been in each part of Brooklyn. Everyone knows me from everywhere. So, Flatbush is where I’m from. I’ve been in Canarsie, Crown Heights, but the whole Brooklyn is together at the end of the day. That’s how I put it. If you a real Brooklyn nigga you gotta be able to go to every spot in Brooklyn. [laughs]


Do you ever think of people just thinking you’re a ignorant dude? And I ask that because I deal with a lot of people and I tell them, “A lot of these cats, you don’t make it into these situations by being dumb.” Is that ever in the back of your mind that people might be thinking this of you?


Sheff G: At this time, I don’t give a fuck. I always say, the fans and how they look at me that’s what should matter—regardless. You can’t label yourself nowadays because everyone else is going to put a label on you. But growing up in school that’s what they used to do. They used to think I was the kid that was dub or a bug out, or whatever. But I always used to pass. I always got high grades. Besides the bullshit. Besides the other shit I used to get shit done. That’s just how shit is.


Do you feel any type of way—with Brooklyn changing—about people claiming Brooklyn that aren’t really from there?


Sheff G: You know, because of the internet they glorify the fakes now. So, it’s just real different. You got REAL life and you got the internet people. You just gotta learn how to separate that. That’s how you don’t feel a way.


“No Suburban” was definitely one of the first songs to be considered part of this drill, grime New York scene. As it started to blow up, what was that like for you?


Sheff G: It was real confusing. The response I thought I was going to get was not the response I got. The response I got was a rapper response. I got fans off of that. I got people that wanted picture off of that. It was different. At the time I did not think that at all. I was expecting street shit. It just blew up for me. I couldn’t take the train no more. I couldn’t take the bus. I was like,  “What the FUCK?!” I had to learn how to move different ASAP.


So you was expecting static off of that and instead, you got love?


Sheff G: [laughs] I was just expecting something else. I got a different response. I got a lot of love off of that and fans and shit. They were taking pictures of me everywhere. And mind you, I was broke and shit. I’m like, “How am I supposed to start moving?” This shit was different overnight.


After that happens, what was that level of pressure like? I could only imagine there was an amount of pressure that comes with doing a song that gets that kind of attention.


Sheff G:Picture this. I’m going to put you my shoes real quick…

You living in a shelter. You got a million views on YouTube so everyone knows who you are, right? And you broke. And you fighting a gun charge. And you a kid that’s known by everyone in the hood. You don’t have a car. So how you gonna travel? But you gotta travel ‘cuz you gotta make your court dates. That was a lot. I don’t know how I did it to be honest. I was dealing with all of that when that song came out.


You’re one of the leaders in this new scene. How do you go about owning that?


Sheff G: I don’t know to be honest. That’s a good question. They’ve been saying that and calling me that but we was just keeping it 100. People fucked with us because we were keeping it 100. We were just being ourselves and they liked us for it.


Do you even care about it?


Sheff G: You ever see in the movies with warriors where they give the king the crown and they don’t want it? It’s like that. You ever notice that the person with the crown never wanted it to begin with? But I don’t think about it. I don’t let it affect me that much. I just want people to understand where I’m coming from. And if I can do it, they can do it. I think that’s why a lot of fans really fuck with me.


Getting into the music, this definitely felt like a cohesive body of work. Can you tell me about what it was like putting together a full project after you had been putting put songs here and there for 2 years?


Sheff G: The reason why I even chose to make a project in the first place was because I started taking my career serious this year. For the two years I was putting in music, I was just putting it out. Just having people tune it. It was just whatever. But this year, I really took it serious and said, “You know what? I’m going to make a tape.” Jerm had linked me up with my producer John. Shoutout to him. Then after we linked up with John we stopped taking songs off YouTube ‘cuz we used to just take songs from YouTube and use it. So, now we really can sit, make, and build a beat together. When we started doing that—me, Sleepy, and John—it made the whole music change.

Now we can put all of our passions into it and really turn it up. Putting this tape together, that was my first tape. It was really a learning process. But for everyone to fuck with it the way they fucked with it, it was lit. That shit made me happy because I was just learning how to really do it as I was going through songs. It was lit though. That’s how it happened. I put it out and shit went crazy.


Going into the project, was there anything you wanted to accomplish?


Sheff G: I always thought about kids and people that’s going to work everyday—I kept thinking about them bumping the songs in their headphones going to work or on their way to school. Those is the times when you really need music. Times when you stressed out in the morning. You like, “Damn. I don’t got what I need.” I kept thinking about that the whole time I was making the tape. I was trying to explain my story. Like, “Yo. I been through it my nigga. It’s crazy. Shit not always going to be lit. It’s that Unluccy Luccy shit.” I didn’t want the tape to sound like one big song. It gotta sound like different songs on a tape. I didn’t want one bigass same song, you feel me? [laughs]


When you go into making a song, are you a writer who sits down with a physical pen? Do you use the notes in your phone? Or, are you going off the top of the head?


Sheff G: The first thing I do is build the melody. And then I hear the story in my head. Right off the melody I got the song already in my head. So, I just put it down in my Notes. If I don’t put it down, then my brain will just keep freestyling.


What is your favorite part of making a song?


Sheff G: I would say the verses. After I do he chorus. Actually, I think it’s everything. Like the beat. I be making the beat. I be helping make the beats now and all that. It’s a lot. I like the bass, the verse, the chorus—everything. The different flows I be trying to use. I be trying to challenge myself each song.


What’s your least favorite part?


Sheff G: When I get tired. I can’t work when I’m tired. I go to sleep. [laughs] But I live in the studio, you hear me? We make songs all day, all night, until niggas is tired to the max. Then we just knock. When I go to the studio, I can probably stay a whole day making one song. People, everybody be like, “Damn. Why you only made on song for the day?” But I tell em, “Listen. I’d rather have 10 good songs than 100 wack songs.” I’d rather have 10 good tracks than the 100 wack.


How do you choose your collaborations?


Sheff G: Some people, I don’t know how everybody else think, nowadays some people just using features for clout. I care about the music. So, I’m not gonna work with you unless we gonna make some heat. You gotta be able to make heat with me and we gotta be able to really do some shit to make a song. Unless it’s just some clout track and we putting it together and that’s it. This is my tape.That’s why I chose Sleepy and Mozzy. That was it.


Do you have a favorite song from the project?


Sheff G: My favorite—I have a lot of favorites. But my main favorite is “Feel a Way.” The reason it’s my favorite is because when I was making that song I was emotional. My older cousin Cease is locked up. He’s the one in the beginning of the song talking. He said that before I even made the song. I recorded it. And when I played it back it just made me get like, “Damn.” That shit made me get emotional. I put that in the beginning and it stayed there.


What does “The Unluccy Luccy Kid” mean?


Sheff G: Living in the shelter, that’s unlucky. But blowing up off of music, that’s lucky. I caught a gun charge, that’s unlucky. But I got 5 years probation for it, that’s lucky. But now I’m on 5 years of probation. That’s unlucky. That’s made restrictions. I gotta check in every week. I gotta piss test. It’s just unlucky, lucky shit. Through all my time it just kept going like that.


I didn’t know what that meant at first. I thought it might be something from your hood.


Sheff G: Bro. I made it to 12th grade my nigga. I made it to 12th grade. Then I got locked up. [laughs] Real unlucky shit.


When people are done with this project, what is something you want them to walk away with?


Sheff G: I want them to walk around with that sense of, “Shit is not given to you.” This shit ain’t what it seems. Everything is not what it seems. If you want something, you gotta get it. That’s just the way it is. I just want them to know that. On their way to school. On their way to work. You gotta hold ya head up.


There was a constant theme in the album of someone who had static or still has static outside. Can you speak to how that feels?


Sheff G: I feel like everybody has PTSD where we come from. You gotta be on point. You tryna move like you not scared or whatever. Or that you’re not paranoid, but you are being scared and paranoid. There’s like a second safety that your mind goes into. Your mind is telling you, “Yo! Be on point!” It’s bad but it’s good because you’re gonna need it. You never know what type of time everyone else is on.


How much of that is still part of your everyday life?


Sheff G: I don’t think any of that will change for me. I’ve been through too much. I gotta be on point.


Do you feel any pressure to be the homie that shows your other homies another way through the music?


Sheff G: Nah. It’s not no pressure. It’s a good as feeling boy. If I can help my brothers get to where they need to get, and I’m still young with them—that’s lit. Niggas could have been anywhere. Niggas could have locked up. That’s a good feeling.


Throughout this conversation you’ve made it clear that you’re appreciative for this chance you’ve gotten with music. What would you say it is about the music that’s help you focus?


Sheff G: The music that I used to listen to would bring me through my day. I would hear the artist talk about shit that I’m living through right now. So, I was like, “What. You been through that shit?” That’s how I was looking at it. I was like, “Damn. This nigga been through that shit. He did it.” So, I felt like I could do it too. That’s what used to hit me all the time.

Family, friends, my living situation, and my court situation too. I remember going to court and the judge, the lawyer, and everybody would tell me, “You are an artist but look what you talking about. Look what you doing.” I would always try to explain to them, “Listen. I’m trying to paint a picture for the younger kids of what NOT to do.” That shit kept me going though. It motivated me. It’s like a booklet of how to avoid certain shit. I’m showing what this leads to. So, take another path.


I saw you did a Vlad interview. When you walked out of that interview, did you think that he was the police?


Sheff G: [Laughs] Yo. Vlad is Vlad though. He just asks a lot of questions.


What was that experience like for you?


Sheff G: It was my first major interview. I just appreciated being there. I already what type of time Vlad was on. He just doing what he gotta do.


What’s next for you? What’s 2020 looking like?


Sheff G: 2020 is looking like a lot of green. A lot of good. Tours coming up. More music coming up. Features coming up. It’s movie time.

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